or so i remember

How old am i?
there is a difference between age and experience; you kan have one without the other. duh right? right.
right.

today the wind was wonderful and my friends were there as the paths in the woods kept bringing us to pavement. we pretended we were pirates and the world disappeared. i forgot that i had not lived with them in the wilderness my whole life, but then i thought "well, maybe i have" but i havent, but maybe.
last night, travis and i found the wind, sitting on his porch swing. he drank a 40 and i was nervous, though it had nothing to do with the beer. it was the first time in a long time that we'd traded stories. its been a nice change of pace seeing him more often again. i bet he wrote that song about me too, unfortunatley. travis keeps his hair short these days. he's so strange. always changing everything.
today, shawn kame over, and somehow we met with travis at the park. shawn and i had bbq sandwiches, mine was perfekt (i think shawn liked his too). i was still up tight, though it had nothing to do with the night before. he asked me what it means to be nothing without others. i loaned him a book. shawn and i see eye to eye a lot. unless it has to do with our favorite and least favorite songs on cds, bekause usually we are opposites; though, we agree on the spaces inbetween. which, if you know much about my head lately (which you almost certainly do not) then you know that the inbetweens are what i'm looking for.

anything above that you think says "gay" is not.
jerk

i kept thinking it is time for a new moon. in fact, i got to thinking about it so much, that i was sure of it. konvinsed. this is when i started throwing "hope" into my logik. this is not the way to go. the moon is still crescent, and it takes longer to make a pass than i remembered. but thats how it always goes, or so i remember.